It’s been a few months since I’ve written anything, so I’ve got a lot on my mind. I’ll try and cram the last two months into several paragraphs, even though I could write a book on what I’ve learned during this time. Here goes…
I was happy to find some really talented Christian rappers recently and that has been a great change of pace. I quit idolizing the music icons who worship money, sex, drugs and themselves months ago, so finding some new rap that focuses on Jesus and his amazing love was pretty sweet. It says a lot about these rappers who could easily go mainstream and make it big, but instead, dedicate their lives to Christ and communicate that through their rhymes. Among these artists is Lecrae, who I would have to say is my favorite at this point. His style, flow, and beats are anything you would hear in a club, but his lyrics are speaking truth into the hearts of all people. One of his songs, “Unashamed,” talks about how he doesn’t care about what non-Christian rappers think about him because he isn’t afraid to proclaim the Gospel. Romans 1:16 says, “I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes.”
This is definitely the stage I’ve arrived at. I’ve come to the realization that I am a new person, free from my sin because of Jesus. My identity is in Jesus. I get my strength from Jesus. I’m finally living life because of Jesus. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. My life revolves around Jesus! Just typing that makes me smile because of what he’s done for me. I wish I could put into words what it means to be born-again in Him. It’s almost impossible though. Words truly can’t describe the life that Jesus restores in those who put their faith in him. All I can say is this: I can never, ever, go back to being a slave to sin and living for myself. We were made to glorify God, and when we start doing that, he transforms you heart and mind into the most amazing thing you could imagine, and then some. The more I put into this, the more I’m blown away and thinking, “No way! This is too good to be true! Why me God? I don’t deserve it!” And then, before I can even get an answer, he gives me more. I feel like I’m hardly doing justice to how great all this is, but I’m explaining it the best I can. It really is true when you hear someone say you won’t understand it unless you’ve experienced it.
Has this been an easy walk in the park for me? No. Dear God, no. It is tough. I have suffered, but through suffering comes growth, and through growth comes great reward. It’s all on God’s time, not mine. He knows that if he gave me everything overnight that I would go back to my old lifestyle in a heartbeat, so he doesn’t. My faith gets stronger over time, and despite the minor suffering from time to time, it’s well worth it. I really wish more people my age could experience what the Christ-centered life is. It’s hard to give up the earthly things that society tells us are natural. It’s hard to not get caught up in the ways of this world. It’s hard feeling like an outcast when it’s so easy to just follow the crowd. But, when it’s all said and done, I’m 100% sure my rewards are waiting in Heaven. I see life through the lens of God now, and though it may seem weird or crazy to some people, I know we all have to face judgement when Jesus comes back. I can’t imagine how glorious of a day that will be, and until then, I’ll be living life to the fullest through Him.
It’s not about me anymore, but it always is, and always will be about JESUS.